"My Hannah bug"

When you were born I thought God blessed me with an Angel.
To be so perfect how could you not be?
Every single day you find a way to amaze me.
God must have plucked you straight out of the heaven and into my arms.
What a great responsibility to care for God's child.
And what an honor that he chose me.
You feel me with such joy, pride, and hope.
Every single day you make me smile.
Every single day my heart bubbles over with pride.
And every single day you give me hope for all human kind.
You exceed my expectations.
How blessed I am to have such a stunningly beautiful girl.
You may not know it, but you single handily inspire me.
Such a serene spirit, so full of life.
You make me want to be a great and wonderful mommy.
I could never have asked for such a perfect little girl.
You are so much more the I could have imagined in my wildest dreams.
Everyday I watch you grow into such a fantastic little lady and I wouldn't miss a second of it.
So move over world, because my little storm, Hannah is on her way!
I love you with every fiber of my being and more and more every day.
I hope that you will always be proud to call me your mommy.
But remember, you will always be my little girl!
Your Proud Mommy,
-Amber

"Bonnie's Marathon"

Life is like a marathon race and pacing myself is hard.
I am tired of coming in last place, because that is not my style.
I play the cards that were dealt to me but goldfish is not my game.
I would like to have a full house just every once in a while.
But all that seems to come my way is five card draw.
I will keep on trucking because God is at the wheel.
Giving up is not an option even if I have to be on auto pilot every once in a while.
This is for you Bonnie, and for all that are strong.

"A void no more"

Conflicted in my own self absorption of pain and hurt.
So many unseen scars in my mind and in my heart.
What good am I to anyone else if I am no good to myself.
To not live in the past, but to return to the present.
Just to be present.
Just to be seen and heard.
Have the things I have seen and lived made me stronger or only withdrawn and numb?
To have everything I have ever wanted, yet to have nothing all at the same time.
I don't want to feel like a void, I refuse to life this life anymore.
I don't want to feel unwanted or like a burden, because I am someone.
I want to truly see how fortunate I am, despite of it all.
I want to say I made it.
I want to live to be a hundred and have marvelous stories to tell, and not stories of sorrow.
I will wake up every morning and say, "Thank you Lord, for you are great."
To find true happiness then I must look within myself.
I want to be independent and self reliant.
A spectacular and positive role model to my kids and the people around me.
I want people to see the light radiating from me.
Lord you are my strength, my refuge, and I will run to you.
Only through you will I be great and the person you intended me to be.
A void no more, Amen.
-Amber